11:11

I got it. I get it, I see it, I felt it, but now I no longer do. Where credit is due, I give it and the other day I got it back, for once. I felt accomplished. For a moment, I had to pause; reflect on my rejections, contest my conclusions, and for a fleeting second, I imagined I might still feel for her like I used to.

It's lovely getting what you wanted but realizing you don't need it. There is still beauty in this world, and I feed off of it. Needy is breezy before it's to greedy, I see. I'm not too far from where I was, same bedroom, actually/honestly. With ceilings for sins and saints in the cracks of the roof I guess I fucked up, it's all good. There is nothing to frown for, and all the more reason to show off that dazzling grin you have, my dear :)

Two years of tyranny , tragedy and maybe even truancy have brought me to true love, traquility, and now... the tarmac is cleared. Like bridge construction in the blood; it's gone. All of that was for NOTHING because in two years; it's trivial. The dreams will be over tonight, haven't had one since. Even if I never speak to you again, the debt is settled and my mind is completely free to focus on the most amazing girl; the one you led me to with your mutiny. Thank goodness for Lauren & birthdays & cigarettes & texting and all I can say is that for the first time in two years, there's nothing on my shoulder and it feels fine!